While my mom may tell you I'm a great knitter, I'm here to tell you that isn't always the case. Every once and awhile, a pattern comes up that really challenges me, and right now, that pattern is our Spotlight Shawl KAL.
We've had so many successful finished shawls come out of this KAL, so I want to clarify that the problem isn't with the pattern. Clearly, the problem is ME. I really enjoyed the first two sections of the shawl. It felt like a meditation as I worked the simple garter stitch with gradual increases that really let me appreciate the beauty of my yarn choice. The Blue Moon Marine Silk Fingering slipped easily through my hands as I worked and talked, and I love the subtlety of the colors.
Then I hit my Waterloo. I am used to having lace charted out, but here it is written out with no chart. It's not a hard pattern: there are only really two repeats. But yet my brain. will. not. do. it. Other people have done it with no problem, so why can't I?
Here's where I think it's important for all knitters, crocheters, any kind of crafters to cut themselves some slack. I've been learning not to call myself stupid and think about WHY I am struggling with the thing. For me, I am very bad with this kind of spatial thinking. I need the chart to see how the stitches line up. For others, a chart makes them go cross-eyed and need the stitches written out line by line. Neither one is wrong, it's just a different way of thinking.
So I am bound and determined to finish this shawl, but I need to step away from it for a minute. When you've messed up, it's important to take a deep breath and move on. Come back to it later when your mind and eyes are fresh. Use a lifeline! (If you don't know how, David is going to show us for free on Saturday, April 1 at 1:00 PM). And forgive yourself.